Mar 26, 2019

on sentiment in motherhood


I don't think of myself as a sentimental person, yet when I look around the room I realize that it is full of sentiment.

a trio of wooden dinosaurs carved by my grandpa.
the collection of Winnie the Pooh books that I read as a child.
Nate's own stuffed bear, Smokey with the singed paws.
a single dried rose from Rose's baby shower.
a dresser from my dad's childhood.
my Raggedy Ann doll.
that glass vase held flowers at my wedding.
a stuffed leopard that was once my brothers & a small stuffed cougar cub that was also his.
a wooden bear that used to sit inside Nate's childhood home.

My babies sleep in the same room I grew up in. The walls may be a different color, but the windows are the same ones I covered in lace curtains & stared at the moon through almost every night of my adolescent life.

I don't think of myself as a sentimental person, but when my children are playing in the yard that my brothers & I used to explore & I'm showing my son the juniper fort we built & imagining the ways I'm going to fix it up for him, it is a bit difficult not to be.

Feb 13, 2019

DIY painted valentine hearts



I have been wanting to start making paint projects with Bruce, so with Valentine's Day coming up, it was the perfect motivation to get my butt in gear and get going! I love art & anytime Bruce shows an interest in creative things I get so excited.

I started this project with a quick Pinterest search for a homemade paint recipe & found a super simple one with only four ingredients that I'll share below. My #1 requirement was that the paint had to be edible, cuz if you have spent any time around toddlers & babies, you know how much they love to put stuff in their mouths, & I'm not about to poison my kids.

Bruce loved this activity & has been asking to "do painting" every day since. Rose, not so much. Although I think she was mostly mad that I wouldn't allow her to dump out the entire jar of paint.


materials

blank white paper
edible paint
paint brushes*
pencil
scissors

*paint brushes are optional. I didn't have any on hand, so we used our fingers instead.



edible paint recipe 

1/2 cup flour
1/4 cup kosher salt
3/4 cup water
food coloring

01. add ingredients together in a small bowl & mix it up! 

02. after mixing, I divided the paint into three empty baby food jars & added varying amounts of red food coloring into each jar to create a range of pretty pink colors. After the paint dries, the salt adds a nice shimmer.

03. store any leftover paint in the refrigerator.



directions

01. give your kid (or yourself) a blank sheet of white paper & let them go nuts on it -- the messier the better, in my opinion.

02. set the painted pages aside & let them dry. 

03. once completely dry, take your pencil & outline heart shapes on the backside of the painting. Don't worry about them being perfect -- I think a unique/homemade look is endearing.

04. cut out the hearts & erase any leftover pencil marks.

05. write a cute note on the back & send them off to your loved ones!


Oct 11, 2018

the most beautiful part


"the most beautiful part
of your body is wherever
your mother's shadow falls.
...
the most beautiful part of your
body
is where it's headed. & remember,
loneliness is still time spent
with the world."

These words written by the poet Ocean Vuong struck deep in my heart. 
These are the words I want to tape to the bathroom mirror and recite over and over as I wash the sleep from my eyes each morning. Sleepy eyes from nights spent loving my babies.
Words that I want to teach my daughter and my son.
Words that I thought as I nursed her to sleep, as I cradled him in my arms.
Words to tell them that who they are is beautiful and perfect, and their mother will always love them.