Thursday, October 11, 2018

the most beautiful part


"the most beautiful part
of your body is wherever
your mother's shadow falls.
...
the most beautiful part of your
body
is where it's headed. & remember,
loneliness is still time spent
with the world."

These words written by the poet Ocean Vuong struck deep in my heart. 
These are the words I want to tape to the bathroom mirror and recite over and over as I wash the sleep from my eyes each morning. Sleepy eyes from nights spent loving my babies.
Words that I want to teach my daughter and my son.
Words that I thought as I nursed her to sleep, as I cradled him in my arms.
Words to tell them that who they are is beautiful and perfect, and their mother will always love them.

Tuesday, September 25, 2018

autumn bucket list + printable

It's autumntime! Do you know what that means for southern California? Absolutely nothing!

My mom sent me that joke on the equinox and I thought it was too good not to share. It's funny because it's true, right? Not many changes happen around here as far as seasons go -- our days will continue to be 80-90 degrees for at least another month -- but I'm not letting that stop me from getting into the festive spirit and eating soup every day.

It's well known that autumn is one of the more favorite times of the year. The colors of the world are literally changing all around us. I have always wanted to make a seasonal bucket list and now that I have kids, especially as Bruce is getting older and capable of doing/understanding more, I think the importance of creating traditions and planning fun activities for him to do is growing.

Now, without further ado, I give you my autumn 2018 bucket list! Please let me know what you think of it. Did I miss anything? What would you add to your own list?

CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD THE PRINTABLE



01. MAKE A PUMPKIN DISH
02. VISIT A FESTIVAL OR FAIR
03. DO A SEASONAL CRAFT
04. THRIFT A FEW COZY SWEATERS
05. GO APPLE PICKING
06. LEARN HOW TO MAKE APPLE CIDER
07. BAKE A PIE


08. PLAY FOOTBALL WITH FAMILY / FRIENDS
09. WEAR A COSTUME
10. VISIT A PUMPKIN PATCH
11. HOST A PUMPKIN CARVING PARTY
12. TOAST PUMPKIN SEEDS
13. ROAST MARSHMALLOWS UNDER A FULL MOON
14. WRITE A LETTER TO A LOVED ONE


15. MAKE CARAMEL APPLES
16. WATCH A SCARY MOVIE
17. VISIT THE ZOO
18. GO TRICK-OR-TREATING / PASS OUT CANDY
19. DECORATE SEASONAL COOKIES
20. START A GRATITUDE JOURNAL
21. FINISH A NOVEL


22. SIP HOT COCOA
23. PUT UP SEASONAL DECORATIONS
24. PLAY A BOARD GAME
25. GO FOR A HIKE
26. TAKE THE SCENIC WAY HOME
27. JUMP IN PUDDLES
28. CRUNCH FALLEN LEAVES


*all photos were taken from my "October" Pinterest board.


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Thursday, September 20, 2018

some of the things i like

SOME OF THE THINGS I LIKE
part three

Haagen-Dazs ice cream bars
summer rain
the rosy, warm colors of the desert
california poppies
Rose in bonnets
Bruce's cowboy hat, the one that used to be my baby brothers cowboy hat
the warmth of the sun
watching Nate and Bruce play
seeing my husband happy
my ever growing stack of library books
the curl that is currently hanging down across the middle of Bruce's forehead
seeing the moon through my bedroom window
swimming in the ocean in August
Rose's makeshift crawl
the way Bruce sing-songs his conversations
unexpected hugs from Bruce
nap time
Roses scrunchy, happy face
wearing flannel shirts in the morning
burying my toes in the sand
Bruce's squeaky voice
and broken sentences
granola with fresh berries for breakfast
chunky baby thighs
gummy baby smiles
reading beside a campfire
when Bruce says "nigh-night mister sun!"
the smell of sunscreen
a good night's sleep
freshly squeezed orange juice
watching the sunset
muddy toes
mealtimes on the back patio
creating a home

Friday, September 7, 2018

six tips for traveling with kids


Don't.

lol jk but seriously -- don't.

Stay home. Hang out in the backyard. Walk to the neighboorhood pool. Do whatever the heck you want but believe me when I say, you will all be much happier staying away from the car.

At least until your kids are old enough to realize that it's OK to fall asleep without crying for 30-45 mins beforehand, and that final hour in the car is not going to be their last.

(Keep in mind that my children are two years old and seven months old and tend to cry whenever the other one does. Maybe it's bonding for them? I don't know. All I know is that none of us enjoy being in the car for more than three hours.)

But, just in case you're crazy like we are and want to share the world with your kids, here are a few tips to help you survive...

01. Pack new toys specifically for the drive.
I wish I could take credit for this tip but I have to be honest and tell you that Nate thought of it first. All on his own, he went to the shed and pulled out a few of our "off rotation" toys to surprise Bruce and Rose with in times of need, and it worked like a charm! I knew I married Nate for a reason :) I only wish that we had thought to pack another bag of toys specifically for the drive home because after playing with them on the drive up to Yosemite and the four days we were there, by the time we got in the car to drive home, the once new toys had become old toys again.

02. Find interesting places to pitstop along your route.
If you're going to be spending eight hours on the road and stopping every two hours to stretch your legs and scream into a pillow, you might as well make those stops more worthwhile than Walmart and Trader Joes. Although we did come out of TJ with cookies, so I'll say that's a win. Maybe next time we drive to Yosemite we'll check out the Agriculture Museum in Tulare! Bruce is very into tractors.
If you're into history, then the History Here app is great for locating interesting places from the past.

03. Bring along your tablet to whip out when all hell starts breaking loose (if you're into that sort of thing).
While in the middle of Bruce's massive tantrum during our drive home from Yosemite, I leaned over to Nate and remarked that this is one of those moments when I wish we had a tablet or Blu-ray player to use to quickly pacify him. Nate responded by saying, "well, maybe not." and we discussed the idea for a while (while Bruce screamed in the back seat) and decided once again that we weren't the kind of people to let electronics be a substitute for personal growth. At least not yet. Check back after our next trip. But if you are, that's great! I envy you and your peaceful travel.

04. Prep the playlist.
I have discovered that there are three essential genres of music to use when traveling with kids:
     1. Disney soundtracks that the kids enjoy singing along to.
     2. Mom and Dad's favorites because #balance and #maintainsanity
     3. Relaxing/classical when it's time to wind down.

05. Keep an open mind.
Realize that not everything is going to go according to plan, and that is ok! Maybe you don't make it all the way to that big park you researched before needing to stop, or perhaps you end up handing out all of the little toy cars you had set aside for times of crisis within the first hour of the drive -- oh well! We're always learning and growing, and chances are your kids are only going to remember the happy parts of your family vacation.

06. Pray they sleep the whole way.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Sunday, August 12, 2018

how to know it's summer


On skin, sweat.

In the afternoon, baths in the kitchen sink.

Between toes, mud.

On the stereo, The Beach Boys.

Overheard, tales of travel.

On sandwiches, avocado.

During the night, stargazing.


After dinner, running barefoot outside.

For bedtime, windows open.

On the calendar, camping trips.

Dripping onto bellies, watermelon juice.

At the park, concerts.

For breakfast, berries.

During the afternoon, visits with Granny.


Tucked behind ears, wildflowers.

After naps, the air-conditioned library.

On clotheslines, swimming suits.

In the freezer, popsicles.

For squeezing, naked baby thighs.

On our minds, the ocean.

In our hair, sand.

Thursday, August 2, 2018

the freedom of childhood




Summer nights in a leaky pool,
when the air is so hot that the breeze suffocates instead of cools you
and you relish the feeling of the
icy
hose
water
against your skin.

When the air is so hot that even mama sits in the kiddie pool.

Neither of you is wearing any clothes -- Rose's first time being diaper free outside of the bath.
I envy the freedom of childhood. You haven't yet learned to feel ashamed of your body. No one tells you skin is inappropriate. Your body is the greatest gift you have received and you are using it to the fullest.

≋⛭≋

In this photo, Bruce is tickling Rose's leg but she's too focused on the water to be affected. These are their personalities to a T.

Bruce, always playing and looking for ways to have fun. Always loving his sister.
Rose, noticing everything from the big dog that just walked by, to the tiny crumb on the palm of her hand and the drop off water running down her arm, and not noticing when her brother is trying to love her just a little too hard.

Wednesday, July 11, 2018

unpublished: mannequins


from 2016(RIP Sport Chalet):

Sport Chalet is creating a small (very athletic) army.

for the past week and a half i've been working in the Long Beach Sport Chalet, helping with the merchandising and organizing of their apparel department. one day, after the boxes full of disassembled mannequins arrived, i walked into the back-stock to see this.

slightly creepy.

slightly modern art installment.

either way, i dig it.