Monday, October 25, 2010

The dreaded and anticipated Birthday.

Why am I dreading tomorrow? This is the biggest day of my life so far! And I wish it wasn't happening. I'm not afraid of growing old, but I'm scared of leaving my childhood. 18 is a big step. This birthday isn't just "one year older and wiser, too!" This year is a leap into real life. If I'm arrested I have to go to real man's jail now! I just want to scream "NOT YET!" I wanna hide from it. Why can't I have just one more year of bliss? Or maybe can I skip this year all-together and go on to 19?
Tomorrow I will officially be an adult. I thought I was so prepared for this day..Why oh why did I want to rush it?? Please slow down time..let this night last forever. Must I wake up in the morning and be different?
But I wont be different. I'll still be me, right? I'm not going to change overnight, whether I'm a legal adult or not! So cheer up! Rome wasn't built in a day and the world isn't ending tomorrow! I AM GOING TO BE 18! And I'm excited.
...Or, so I keep telling myself... :P

2 comments:

  1. You make me laugh! :) I think you and I are more alike than we think haha! I felt those exact same feelings when I turned 18. My whole life that was the moment I had waited for and then when it was coming it was the last thing in the world that I wanted. But I hope you're starting to enjoy it now!! And realize just how fun it can be!! I still can't believe that I got MARRIED at 18! I had definitely lost my mind haha jk! Anyways, 18 is a whole new life with so many more options!! Enjoy every second girl!!! And know you can ALWAYS talk to me!!

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  2. Abbie! Thanks girl, I always love talking to you! And yes, I am starting to enjoy it :] It's not as bad as I thought it would be. haha.
    I know, you're crazy! You just barely got into adulthood and then already married! Oh my. haha

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